
Life can be a bit peculiar to us sometimes, but rarely more so than our own hearts.
We looked yesterday at some of the attractions of enclosure . . . stillness, worship, TIME to seek God. It should not surprise us that inactivity, uselessness, and ennui are some of the crushing difficulties, too.
A little stillness, injected at our pleasure into our busy lives, is a balm. When the “worship is good” at church or at a retreat, we delight ourselves in it. We so lament the schedules and rigors and distractions of our lives that swallow our time and keep us from God, but we alone can “seize the day.”
I speak to those who have time and those who will make time. Twenty minutes of Quiet Delight can, as we have seen, set the tone for our day. Twenty minutes daily can change our lives by changing our perspective and our inclinations! Even five or ten minutes of pure enjoyment in the Incomparable Presence of the Lord are not without effect, and not least of all because we aren’t there for the affect.
We must stand to, however, dear ones! Jesus was not given a “pass” by the enemy in His relationship with the Father, and neither are we. There will be dozens of times when it feels as though our Quiet Delight is anything but, when it is absolutely clamorous with intruding thoughts and lusts for activity and stimulation. Those twenty minutes will seem like the biggest possible waste of the day.
It will help us to recognize that in stillness we see what is going on in the cloister of our hearts, what it’s like in there when we leave the governance to all the impulses of the day and of our carnal souls. It’s horrifying! All the worries of all the years of our lives, all the unanswered fears and unresolved conflict and unanswered questions and unmet expectations and all the demands personal and spiritual that have yet to be confronted by truth and decision. Because we do not stir them up with stillness, they romp and screech and jeer at us, right inside, where we are making an abode for Jesus Himself. That is not right.
Stillness works, coupled with a quiet delight in the Lord our God. As we persevere, peace will prevail at last, at first with no measurable change in our twenty minutes of stillness but in our every day souls. By our own volition, day by day, we choose the Nearness of God for our good. (Psalm 73:28) We choose this expression of worship with this one expectation, that God is, for us, enough.
Questions will find their answers or they will find their rest. The push and pull of being human will begin to balance quite naturally on the head of this point of light, “The LORD is in his holy temple; let all the earth be silent before him.” (Habakkuk 2:20, NIV) Remember, my dear Sisters, we ourselves have become the temple of the Lord. (1 Corinthians 3:17)
This will never be, for us, a journey into Karma or mindlessness or oneness with ourselves or the universe. Oh, precisely where we do not want to be! This is an investment in the simple truth that if God reigns on high over all His creation, and because He is pleased to make His abode with us and to be for us a dwelling place, then we will sit at His feet for the joy of being where we belong.
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